What I had before that I don’t want now.
I’m back, living in Chicago, and so far, loving every second of it.
But things have changed since I’ve been gone. The only form of entertainment I had for the last six months were books, running games in public, and online House episodes when I was feeling blue.
I get home and it’s back to 24/7 streaming Fox news and the CNN channel, which I have to learn to mute out, and it’s easier than I thought it would be. I have a TV in every single room which can pleasure me with over 200 premium and HD channels, of course including my 61” flat screen downstairs. I’ve got two computer systems in my office, dual widescreen monitor action, and wireless internet that goes across the property. Yes, property. This thing is not a house, it’s an establishment it’s so big to me, and our backyard cannot even be called a backyard but more of a field. Okay okay it’s not a field.
All of this great stuff, you’d think I’d be excstatic to get back to right!? The first thing I did when I got home was pay no mind to any of it, go in the basement, find my box that had my comforter and my books, and I brought them upstairs to read.
Everything here is so……big…..I like it. But again, need to get used to things that I don’t necessarily know if I want to get to used to. I would realllllly love to live a more simple life than I was doing 7 months ago.
So now that I’m home, to release any type of anxiety and frustration that I may be experiencing, which isn’t subject to my previous statements of the eff-word celibacy……
FUCK.
Ah I feel much better. It’s time to live in America again <3
